this week, I am proud of myself

I have done a lot this week that has made me really start to think that this time... might be THE time...

Thursday night I was going out with my brother in law and his wife, and they were picking the place, so I planned ahead that day by eating very low point breakfast and lunch, and then eating a very light dinner before I went-- so that when I was ordering, and when the appetizer was in front of me, I wasn't famished. And then I ordered what I wanted, within reason-- no prime rib or cheesecake... instead I got a barbecue chicken sandwich with mashed potatoes, no desert, and a glass of white wine. The whole meal rounded out just over 20 points, but since I had planned so carefully the rest of the day, I only ended up using about 11 of my flex points.

Then last night after work I just had a hankering for something to wind down with, it being Friday night and all, so I opted for diet coke and rum-- 2 points per drink-- and honestly only made it through one drink before I was ready for bed. I also got a bag of gummy bears and carefully split the contents into three (each third being worth two points). I ate one third, thinking I'd save the other for today, but when I woke up someone had finished them off for me.

So this morning when I woke up, I put on one of those baby t's that I ordinarily am pretty hit and miss with: sometimes I put it on and feel totally comfortable (although I usually put on a sweatshirt and wear a tank top underneath it JUST in case) and sometimes I put it on and I feel so gross in it that I change to a huge oversized t shirt. The issue is that they are XXL when I probably should have been looking into buying a triple. But this morning? I put on one of my Old Navy baby t's and could NOT believe it-- it actually fit WELL. No need for a tank top or a sweat shirt, I could wear this anywhere and feel totally comfortable.

I am approaching one month with Weight Watchers, and I think what I have enjoyed the most so far is the fact that I have learned SO much about the food that I eat thinking that it's probably okay. I had a big lesson yesterday when I ate a turkey tom sandwich from Jimmy Johns-- it's turkey, right? Lettuce, tomato, some cheese, but no big deal???? I checked it last night-- 26 grams of fat, 13 points! As if that wasn't ENOUGH-- I calculated it again after removing the mayo-- um hello-- ONE gram of fat and 6 points. I think we know how I will be ordering my sandwiches from now on.